Just occurred to me that next year, today’s gonna suck with everything being a 2..... ugh
Anyways.
How come I always have to wait? I try not to make others wait. I feel bad if I talk to one of T/them, two times in a row because then I feel like I’m favoriting one over the others. But that’s not it. I try really hard to be good and not be asshole a’cause I know I’m not the only thing T/they have to focus on, but I wanna be selfish. I never get to be selfish. I wanna be selfish and big and I wanna be selfish and little. I loves dem so super much. I fink they’re pulling away a’cause I’m too needy. So I’m tryinna not to ppl be visible or heard. But it’s hard. I enjoyed playing with and hanging out with Alyce, and talking and just being us. But I really miss that.
Senpai finks I’m mad, I’m not mad. I’m disappointment. Not in Senpai. Or anyone really. Just at the situation. I kinda gets upsets and disappointment whenever I get excited for things and a’cause some things Senpai does and how Hims make me feel dats different from the others.
Honestly I think it’ll all be easier once W/we are face to face. I think that then they can be fluid as can i, and i will be able to have them easier and not seem like I'm favoriting anyone specific.
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