Hey...
Me again... I know I haven't been writing much, but I've been trying not to be a bitch about everything left and right. I need a job and fast. I can't keep going on like this. The bills here are $240-cable/internet/phone, $150-electric, $870-rent, plus the tobacco and whatnots, and even with Bryan working, and Sheryl's mom's check, the bills are suffering. Sheryl gets $389/mo in cash assistance, and spends 98% of it on herself. There's so many things I want to say, but I don't because I don't have a right to say anything. I don't contribute outside of food... so I don't want to step on toes. I contributes $200 toward the rent for August and she asked for money to spend on dumb shit instead of letting the extra money in the house be for bills. I want to stand up and say something, but I can't. I had a dream last night that Sheryl told Bryan that he had to choose me or her. So I got up, packed my shit, grabbed Eryn, and left... I love them both to the moon and back, but if things don't change soon, I'm going to break my own heart and go. I can't live off of everyone else and I can't support people that refuse to contribute to the bills without a statement of "You owe me(Insert amount of money) if you spend it on the electric bill."
that's not how its supposed to be. Not how its supposed to work Everyone's supposed to be working together. but NOooooooo.... not in this house... I just don't know anymore.... I'm thinking that I have a lot of reflection to do, and soon...
Love
Always
Birdie Lou'
