So... I've moved again.. this time to Washington. I'm also dating a girl.. her name is Sheryl. her fiance's name is Bryan. They're pagan as well.
Sheryl is pagan, Bryan is Wiccan...
Sometimes I feel like I'm a third wheel... I mean, Sheryl is beautiful and kind, and Bryan is a really great guy. I just don't want them to feel like I'm in the way... but I'm.... I'm scared they're gonna feel like I'm messing up their relationship.
I'm so much bigger physically than Sheryl is though. I feel so very unattractive. I only have 2 pairs of pants, I'm too fat to fit into anything, but I don't want to ask them to get me clothes because I feel bad asking. I feel like I'm where I belong, but I don't want them to feel like I'm using them. So I try not to ask for things. I almost had a panic attack today asking for index cards and a crayon box. I just.... I don't want them to feel like I'm a leech. I miss some things about Ohio, but Bill made me feel so smothered, and I wasn't IN love with him. I am in love with Sheryl, and I love Bryan as well... I just hope that following my heart isn't the wrong path...
Well, I'm tired. more another day.
Birdie Lou'
