3-20-12

I have to stop writing for a while. Ace has started snooping and I don't want him to find this... I will come back again when it is safe... 


Birdie Lou'

3-17-12

Anthony is 4 today... I wonder if he knows his ABCs yet. I wonder so much and so so many things... Does he have a favorite color? 
What's his favorite food?
Does he have my blue eyes or Robert's brown eyes?
How Big is he?
How big are his hands compared to mine?
What's his favorite cartoon?
Does he even watch cartoons?
Does he know how to ride a bike?
Would he know my voice?
Do he and Elizabeth fight?
How tall is he?
What color is his hair?

I hope his birthday is amazing. 

I love you Anthony... Mommy loves you... I'm so sorry I failed.. 

Love,
Always,
Birdie Lou'

3-17-12

Well, 

I have decided that I have had enough. Ace is manipulative and hurts me emotionally. I also miss my other kids. Asa and Eryn are amazing kids and I love every moment with them... But I still miss Elizabeth and Anthony and Dylan. I think I am going to tell Ace that I want to go back to Ohio. I can't live without my children... ALL Of them... 

I'll write more next time...

Love,
Always, 

Birdie Lou'