8-27-15

I think about you all the time. How we talked about weddings. And the fun we had when we were kids. Helping you with your homework. You trying to teach me how to dance lol. I can't believe it's been a month since my entire world shifted. It's not the first time, but...it...I never thought I'd be getting that call. Just goes to show you.... You need to live life each day as it comes because tomorrow isn't promised. :( I love you Kristine. Always and forever cuz. ❤️💛💚💙💜

Soul knows Soul

When I think about first love,

I remember not saying goodbye

We stayed up all night together

24 hours on the phone

We became miles apart;

The closest thing to staying in your arms was hearing your voice as I drifted to sleep.

We were too proud to say it out loud

The truth we both feared.

I said I love you to all my friends,

But it was a coverup

For a different love entirely.

Some truths don’t need to be spoken,

Some beasts are best left unnamed,

But it doesn’t take much to read between the lines

Of our messages when we fantasized

About our lips, bodies, and hands intertwined.

In my dark moments of despair

You could still bring a smile to my face.

I recall, when I told you how much I hated me

You took it upon yourself to write out all the things you loved about me.

I tried to see myself through your adoring eyes

I read your messages countless times.

We burned bright and fast,

And at 18, I could never dream,

Of a world where you weren’t everything to me.

Now, our flame has long been extinguished

The pain of the end continually stabs me

It’s just a strong memory plundering about in my mind.

Your face is just something I see in passing,

But your birthday I still have memorized.

I still think of you when I hear the song that gave you your name,

and I remember what first love was again.

The feeling of never wanting to say goodbye,

But knowing some day you will.

x