10-16-14

Night before last SHE threatened to throw ryn through a window. And I flipped! I told her if she does I'll kill her.    And then the fight started. Telling me all I do all day is sleep this past week. 

Well of course!! I had surgery a week ago! I'm in pain! I'm tired from my meds.. This all started because Ryn glared at her. SHE told Ryn to clean her room, ryn glared at her, she threatened to throw her through a window!! I told my counselor. And she says she fears for the safety of teetah after we leave. And since SHE already has an open cps case, my counselor is going to file a report. SHE went to jail a few weeks back. For slapping the fuck out of her mom. Her mother that has stage 3 lung cancer btw. SHE went to court and lied her ass off and says that she only smacked her once and that she's not a violent person and blah blah and got off with $300 fines and 2yr probation. Hubs and I found a place that's $110 cheaper a month for rent. Bigger place. Same bed and bathrooms. 3bd 2ba duplex. $750/mo. Landlord said he will take 1/2 off the first month rent if we have the entire sec dep and we can move in nov 1st.  As long as the applications go through okay. We put in the apps Wednesday at 3am. Lol He is filing for bubba cause that's his son. But teetah isn't his... So we are going to see if CPS will place her with us at least until her grandfather is made aware of the situation and we are pretty sure he will take her.  If he doesn't, we plan to file for Taea through cps and see if we can get her. But SHE has gone bat shit crazy and the fact that she sits on the computer from sun up till she passes out... Bothers me. We don't plan on telling SHE until the lease is signed at the new place.  That way when SHE flips... We can run. I've been having nightmares about telling her. Things like... We went and told her that we were leaving and she threw a book at hubs and started beating the shit out of me. 

The kids will already be safe at hub's moms house before we tell her. 

I'm just tired of abusive relationships. My counselor said she thinks I'm doing the right thing and that hubs seems to be a much better fit for me. Since we are on the same level maturity and responsibility levels.