So I asked the hard questions of myself... And decided I am leaving. The threats. The screaming. The demeaning. I can't handle it anymore. I can't handle the feeling of being manipulated. The feeling like I was brought here... Not for her... But to do the things she doesn't want to be doing. Like my job is to handle anything that she would normally complain about. I want to be in a relationship with someone who shows with actions that I am desired. And it's not just sex. Kisses. Hugs. Touching my skin... Anywhere, pretty much.. Talking to me about random bullshit. Sitting by me for no reason. Supporting my desires in and out of the bedroom. I just want to be with someone that's afraid of losing me for a change. Someone that strives to make me as happy as I try to make them... Someone that likes my smile. Someone that does stupid things to make me laugh when I'm down. Someone that understands that when I'm sick I'm a big baby and as such need taken care of. Someone that understands my submissive side and wants to be that dominant support I need in a mate.
I told him I am planning on leaving tonight... And he started to tear up.. And he asked me not to leave him. He asked why I was leaving and I told him everything. I planned on telling HER at a later time.. After I had a place to go... And he told me he wasn't happy with her. That he hasn't been for quite some time. And that he wants to go with me. So.... We have decided after a long 3 hour serious talk... That we love each other too much and get along too well.... To let the other go.
So he is leaving with me. We are going to start over just us. There are many aspects that make me feel like I've found my twin flame... My eternal soulmate.. The one... When I'm with him.. It's like... I've never felt so connected to anyone before like this in my life. I can't explain it really... I'll write more later, I have to run in the store.
Until next time
Love
Always
Birdie Lou'
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